I got a new perscription, it sucks[views:15684][posts:77]______________________________________________ [Aug 22,2007 3:34pm - ArrowHead likes Pie ""] I also withdraw my advice to Keith to smoke weed. Weed very likely might help you a LOT, but this shit that happened to you sounds pretty serious, and unfortunately your doctors just wouldn't be able to monitor and appraise your condition if you were self-treating it with illegal drugs. Let them figure out what's wrong, and how to stabilize it. Then, after everything levels out, maybe try seeing if weed helps as well as the pharmaceuticals. |
| ______________________________________________ [Aug 22,2007 3:36pm - ArrowHead likes Pie ""] Yeti said:i'm going to give that a shot. you should start publishing a newsletter haha. Didn't we get stoned together outside of that show we played together with Hell Within, Farewell Radiance, Burn in Silence, etc... up in boston? I remember you'd gotten kicked out or something, and I think we blazed a joint in the parking lot. |
| ______________________________________________ [Aug 22,2007 3:39pm - ArrowHead likes Pie ""] Also: When I'm at home a bowl will last me many hours. However, home is my "safety zone". I'm comfortable, isolated, and usually somewhat peaceful. If I'm out and about, it's all about getting as high as fucking possible. Most of you who have seen me at shows, etc.. probably noticed that I'm stoned senseless. If my brain is too busy being too high to think straight, I spend a lot less time dwelling on how I'm currently surrounded by useless pieces of shit. I cannot even handle a trip to the mall without toking up first. Not that I couldn't do it sober, but if I did by the time I make it home my whole shoulder hurts because I was clenching my fist too hard the whole time I was at the mall. |
| ______________________________ [Aug 22,2007 3:40pm - Yeti ""] i don't think that was me, i don't think Sacreligion ever played with Hell Within. i'm bald and 6'5 so that might help answer it. you play/played in Pillory right? we played together at Club Octane in Worcester once when Despised Icon was supposed to play, but other than that i don't know of any other times. |
| ______________________________________________ [Aug 22,2007 3:40pm - ArrowHead likes Pie ""] ^ thus why I come across as a dumbass in person so often, yet come home and sound so "smart" on a messageboard. |
| ______________________________ [Aug 22,2007 3:43pm - Yeti ""] hahahaa fair enough |
| ______________________________________________ [Aug 22,2007 3:43pm - ArrowHead likes Pie ""] Yeti said:i don't think that was me, i don't think Sacreligion ever played with Hell Within. i'm bald and 6'5 so that might help answer it. you play/played in Pillory right? we played together at Club Octane in Worcester once when Despised Icon was supposed to play, but other than that i don't know of any other times. There was one other I'm talking about, in boston. I might be mixing up two bills, but Farewell Radiance was definitely on the bill this time around. You got kicked out for drinking in the bathroom or some shyte, and I found you out in the lot when I went outside to smoke. I remember all our gigs with sacreligion, because you guys were some of my favorite PEOPLE to play shows with. With the exception of the old singer, who I think wanted to fellate me. We played together with the Sac in NH, with wretched asylum (fun times in the lot that night!), once out in worcester at that DI gig you mentioned, and once in boston at that fucking place that I cannot for the life of me remember the name of. I think it's actually allston. There's a liquor store out front, and oh shit - Harper's Ferry. That's it. I remembered, just didn't feel like deleting all that shit I just typed. |
| _____________________________________ [Aug 22,2007 3:54pm - KeithMutiny ""] Im an EMT in Worcester, thats what i do for a living, so im pretty well versed in the orperations of the human body, and its easy to diagnose someone, thats not me, haha. im heading in tomorrow and they took some blood to check my thyroid yesterday. and cav for the record, thats refered to as a TIA, transichemic attack, its a stroke that corrects itself, kind of like a warning that a worse one is comming. that was my initial concern as well. |
| ______________________________________________ [Aug 22,2007 3:57pm - ArrowHead likes Pie ""] KeithMutiny said:and its easy to diagnose someone, thats not me, That's because you don't give as much of a shit about someone else, so you won't spend as much time trying to cover every single possible situation. You'll just go after the most likely. Same reason why doctors won't treat their own family. |
| _____________________________________ [Aug 22,2007 4:00pm - KeithMutiny ""] yea, i got an appointment at 9am, the klonapin i have for now was just thrown at me by my regualr physician, he doesnt really know dick about the situation, i just expected to feel a little better after taking them, not so much. ill find out the real deal tomorrow. |
| __________________________________ [Aug 22,2007 4:01pm - succubus ""] omg keith! that sucks...i jsut read what happened to you. get a good doctor and have them test a bunch of stuff!! =( |
| ______________________________________________ [Aug 22,2007 4:02pm - ArrowHead likes Pie ""] good luck tomorrow. |
| _____________________________________ [Aug 22,2007 4:02pm - KeithMutiny ""] thanks, we'll see |
| __________________________________________ [Aug 22,2007 5:31pm - largefreakatzero ""] All this talk about weed makes me sad because I am all out :( |
| _____________________________ [Aug 23,2007 9:55am - cav ""] Yeti said:i don't think that was me, i don't think Sacreligion ever played with Hell Within. i'm bald and 6'5 so that might help answer it. you play/played in Pillory right? we played together at Club Octane in Worcester once when Despised Icon was supposed to play, but other than that i don't know of any other times. i went to this show, i was so mad about it, originally advertised as 5 bucks, then 10 the day before, then got to the door and it was 15...and it was that little prick dude at the door that no one likes. im pretty sure that was the last show he booked, at least that i heard of. he didnt say anything about DI not showing up, probably never booked them, and no one knew til burn in silence was done playing. good thing the rest of the bands were good, but sorry guys no local band is worth 15 bucks in a place that can barely fit a live metal band. but i think this is the only time i saw pillory so guess it was worth it. |
| _______________________________ [Aug 23,2007 10:33am - Yeti ""] ArrowHead likes Pie said:I remember all our gigs with sacreligion, because you guys were some of my favorite PEOPLE to play shows with. With the exception of the old singer, who I think wanted to fellate me. hahahahahahahahahahahahahaha oh man. |
| ______________________________________ [Aug 23,2007 11:14am - KeithMutiny ""] update: feeling a little better on the new prescription of xanax and some anti depressants, we'll see where this goes. i was diagnosed with generalized anxiety disorder with depression, so basically stay the fuck away from me or ill kill you. |
| _____________________________________ [Aug 23,2007 2:51pm - KeithMutiny ""] if anyone is on citalopram, let me know how it works, cause thats what theyre pumping into me now along with the xanax |
| __________________________________ [Aug 23,2007 3:26pm - succubus ""] So anxiety and depression caused that? Weird.. I get panic attacks bcz of health issues that run in my family...I'm in a waiting room now...blah.. |
| ___________________________________ [Aug 23,2007 3:32pm - ariavette ""] KeithMutiny said:if anyone is on citalopram, let me know how it works, cause thats what theyre pumping into me now along with the xanax my mother takes this, she is recovering from breast cancer. she seems alot more loopy than usual but i dunno if it's from that. |
| ________________________________________ [Aug 23,2007 3:47pm - DestroyYouAlot ""] ariavette said:KeithMutiny said:if anyone is on citalopram, let me know how it works, cause thats what theyre pumping into me now along with the xanax my mother takes this, she is recovering from breast cancer. she seems alot more loopy than usual but i dunno if it's from that. Keith, you're gonna lose your tits! |
| _____________________________________ [Aug 23,2007 4:43pm - KeithMutiny ""] dammit, if i lose my boobs ill be pissed. |
| _____________________________________ [Aug 23,2007 4:50pm - KeithMutiny ""] im supposed to take 3 xanax a day if needed, im up to 3 in the last 2 hours |
| ______________________________________________ [Aug 23,2007 8:41pm - ArrowHead likes Pie ""] Don't go outside the proscribed dose. Anti-depressants are meant to cumulate in your system, much like niccotine or antibiotics. They won't do much at first, until they are in your system long enough to actually effect your regular chemical cycles in your brain. Also, don't go without them either. Missing a day or two will fuck up the whole thing, and make it so they don't do anything again just like when you first started. Finally, find a good friend, family member, or girlfriend (boyfriend?) who can keep a close eye on you. Tell them to watch for any drastic changes to your personality, attitude, etc... You might not notice the difference yourself, but the people closest to you will be able to tell. As I said before, this is the main reason I refuse to do the anti-depressant route. They work, and do what they are supposed to, but I found that my personality, creativity and inspiration, and my attitude all suffered because of it. |
| ______________________________________________ [Aug 23,2007 8:41pm - ArrowHead likes Pie ""] P.S. - good luck. Hope you feel better, just beware because Xanax is the devil. |
| _____________________________________ [Aug 23,2007 9:35pm - KeithMutiny ""] well the xanax is for now till the citalopram is fully in my blood stream, i guess it takes 2-3 weeks to kick in. bascially they gave me the xanax as needed to i can chill out, kinda one of them, take it if you need it or dont if you dont deal. im not worried about the xanax, im more concerned about the antidepressant they gave me, i dont know anyone on it. so far i call the xanax my, "i dont give a fuck" pill, cause thats how it makes me feel, but in a good way. I only have the 0.5mg ones, so its easy to keep track of. ps, by the devil, how do you mean so? just for my knowledge. i have limited expierience with xanax. rather have a 15mg fast acting oxycodone, that sure as hell calms me down, haha. |
| ______________________________________________ [Aug 23,2007 9:47pm - ArrowHead likes Pie ""] xanax fucks with the balances inside your head. After a little while it starts making everything a lot more even, all the time. You lose the lows, but you lose the highs too. You end up with a whole lot of middle. Think of it like recording an instrument. Your shit has some really bad peaks that are causing distortion and feedback. You can turn down the input (distractions, or better: get rid of your source of stress) or you can throw a ton of compression on it (Xanax). The compression works, but it leaves the overall track sounding dull and lifeless. remember, xanax is an anti-depressant too, not just some sort of painkiller. |
| ______________________________________ [Aug 23,2007 10:07pm - KeithMutiny ""] point well taken |