/rttp/ i relapsed yesterday =([views:15136][posts:100]__________________________________ [May 26,2009 11:17pm - reimroc ""] after two years of being clean. shit sucks. |
| ______________________________________ [May 26,2009 11:20pm - xanonymousx ""] dude there is still hope don't give up! |
| __________________________________ [May 26,2009 11:22pm - reimroc ""] well i wasn't exactly clean. i would call it more like marijuana maintenance lol |
| _____________________________________ [May 26,2009 11:26pm - RichHorror ""] What'd you do? |
| __________________________________ [May 26,2009 11:28pm - reimroc ""] i got jammed. really, really jammed. |
| _____________________________________ [May 26,2009 11:33pm - RichHorror ""] [img] |
| __________________________________ [May 26,2009 11:34pm - reimroc ""] lol yes rich, like that. |
| __________________________________ [May 26,2009 11:35pm - reimroc ""] [img] |
| _____________________________________ [May 26,2009 11:35pm - RichHorror ""] Delicious relapse grab bag |
| __________________________________ [May 26,2009 11:37pm - reimroc ""] Yea I bought one of those from this hispanic guy I know. |
| _____________________________________ [May 26,2009 11:38pm - RichHorror ""] We should hang out more. As long as it's nose jam and not vein jam. |
| __________________________________ [May 26,2009 11:39pm - reimroc ""] Then you probably don't want to hang out with me. Thats not to say I don't do the first. |
| _____________________________________ [May 26,2009 11:40pm - RichHorror ""] It's cool we can still use vein jam like nose jam. |
| __________________________________ [May 26,2009 11:41pm - reimroc ""] I probably wouldn't though thats the thing. |
| __________________________________________ [May 26,2009 11:49pm - Conservationist ""] The bit at the beginning of Naked Lunch where he talks about his addiction really floored me. At the time, I'd never heard candor like that. Good luck. If you come to Texas, I'll introduce you to sheep rape -- it's such a high that most people quit all their bad habits just to rape sheep, once they've tried it. |
| __________________________________ [May 26,2009 11:50pm - reimroc ""] LOL |
| _______________________________________ [May 26,2009 11:55pm - the_reverend ""] the whole thing? |
| __________________________________ [May 26,2009 11:56pm - reimroc ""] the_reverend said:the whole thing? What? |
| ______________________________________ [May 27,2009 7:46am - SkinSandwich ""] Heroin smells like baby formula. Not that I would really know though. TSST! SNORT! |
| _________________________________ [May 27,2009 8:05am - reimroc ""] Probably because thats what they cut it with. |
| __________________________________________ [May 27,2009 8:07am - corpus_colostomy ""] Conservationist said:The bit at the beginning of Naked Lunch where he talks about his addiction really floored me. At the time, I'd never heard candor like that. Good luck. If you come to Texas, I'll introduce you to sheep rape -- it's such a high that most people quit all their bad habits just to rape sheep, once they've tried it. HOW MANY OF YOU HAVE HAD ANAL SEX? |
| _________________________________ [May 27,2009 8:39am - reimroc ""] this really does suck. i can't believe i relapsed. |
| __________________________________ [May 27,2009 8:48am - scumfuck ""] ya gonna do it again? |
| _________________________________ [May 27,2009 8:52am - reimroc ""] probably after work. go down to the burg, pick up some new spikes and do it. i'm torn between not going and going right now. |
| ___________________________________________ [May 27,2009 8:53am - mikeofdecrepitude ""] That's why I would never mainline any drug. Heroin's a decent time, but I'd opt for pharmaceutical painkiller's instead. |
| _________________________________ [May 27,2009 8:57am - RustyPS ""] [img] |
| ______________________________________ [May 27,2009 9:08am - SkinSandwich ""] mikeofdecrepitude said:That's why I would never mainline any drug. Heroin's a decent time, but I'd opt for pharmaceutical painkiller's instead. Agreed, but expensive as shit. |
| _________________________________ [May 27,2009 9:11am - c.dEAD ""] Sorry it had to happen. I wouldn't know, but shits got to be hard to put down. Thats why I would never touch the shit as I know I would love it. |
| _________________________________ [May 27,2009 9:20am - reimroc ""] I had stopped when I got jail/probation 3 1/2 years ago and was clean for a while. when i got out of the system last february(2008) i started drinking/smoking weed which was fine for a while then i don't know what triggered me the other day. I just wanted to do it really, really bad. |
| ______________________________________ [May 27,2009 9:26am - goatcatalyst ""] Sorry to hear. I hope everything works out. Maybe after work you could make arrangements to stay with some friends who don't do it and could give you some positive reinforcement? |
| _________________________________ [May 27,2009 9:28am - reimroc ""] Yea I could do that. I just hate this teeter-tottering feeling i have of "oh well i already relapsed so what will one more time hurt" and "man i don't need to be doing this shit" SUCKS |
| ______________________________________ [May 27,2009 9:39am - goatcatalyst ""] Go with the "don't need to be doing this" feeling and spend some time with friends who can help you through it, dude. You'll be much better off. |
| ____________________________________ [May 27,2009 9:41am - arilliusbm ""] that's a dark hole to climb out of, but definitely within your grasp. try not to do anything that affects your life in a negative way; keep your head up and stay around people who care about you. and stay away from treadmills |
| _________________________________ [May 27,2009 9:43am - reimroc ""] goatcatalyst said:Go with the "don't need to be doing this" feeling and spend some time with friends who can help you through it, dude. You'll be much better off. Yea. I think I will do this. Probably go straight to my buddy's house after work and just chill there for a while. Have him babysit me lolol |
| _________________________________ [May 27,2009 9:44am - reimroc ""] arilliusbm said:that's a dark hole to climb out of, but definitely within your grasp. try not to do anything that affects your life in a negative way; keep your head up and stay around people who care about you. and stay away from treadmills Thank aril. I appreciate your words. |
| ____________________________________ [May 27,2009 9:45am - arilliusbm ""] no problem. PS: let's start a grunge band |
| _________________________________ [May 27,2009 9:48am - reimroc ""] lol my buddy ryan would so be willing to play in that. hes stuck in the 90s(musically) his favorite bands are nirvana and the smashing pumpkins. thats not to say he doesn't listen to other stuff but those were his "firsts" and still listens to them to this day. |
| ______________________________________ [May 27,2009 9:50am - goatcatalyst ""] Fuck, I'd totally do a grunge band. Soundgarden + Alice In Chains + first Pearl Jam album all night long, baby! |
| ___________________________________ [May 27,2009 9:51am - dreadkill ""] sorry to hear it. best of luck. |
| _______________________________________ [May 27,2009 10:18am - BlackoutRick ""] You need to become a friend of Bill's. Go to a meeting. June 4th I'll have 10 years without booze. |
| ___________________________________ [May 27,2009 10:50am - brian_dc ""] Grunge FTW. Relapsing FTL, but what Aril and Goat are suggesting FTW. You can do this, man. |
| _______________________________________ [May 27,2009 10:58am - the_reverend ""] will you be in my century media gift bag? |
| __________________________________ [May 27,2009 11:06am - sxealex ""] my friend just went to rehab for dis poop... sigh... stay clean while u still can broooo |
| __________________________________ [May 27,2009 11:17am - reimroc ""] Thanks for uplift guys. I posted this thread thinking it would make for some sort of interesting original content. Ya know being the nerd I am ^_^. lol To tell you the truth I was expecting to get trolled instead of supported. It is the internet after all. Gotta expect that shit rofl. |
| ______________________________________ [May 27,2009 11:26am - the_rooster ""] While I have no clue what it's like to be addicted to Heroin, and I don't know you at all, I really hope that you muster the ability to get through this tough time you're having and kick that shit. I know it's not this simple, but DON'T DO IT. It'll never be worth it. Go to a meeting, call a friend, play some music, take a walk..... Anything else. I've had a couple close friends get into trouble with cocaine, and it's a sad thing. Be well man. |
| __________________________________________ [May 27,2009 11:46am - Conservationist ""] corpus_colostomy said:HOW MANY OF YOU HAVE HAD ANAL SEX? And being with a man doesn't count! Sheep anal > human anal |
| __________________________________________ [May 27,2009 12:04pm - metal_church101 ""] arilliusbm said:let's start a grunge band Ha!!! |
| __________________________________ [May 27,2009 12:09pm - RustyPS ""] stay strong bro...try to find strength anywhere you can |
| __________________________________ [May 27,2009 12:55pm - reimroc ""] i'm going to get back into actually playing music more often to keep myself busy. being a musician i am always surrounded by it but i have really put off playing recently. |
| ______________________________ [May 27,2009 1:19pm - blue ""] THERE ARE NO GRAB BAGZ, ONLY WEED IS REEL. Seriously, though. Fuck that shit, do whatever you can in your power to stay away. Friends, family & music, that's all you need. |
| __________________________________ [May 27,2009 1:20pm - Eli_hhcb ""] My friend! Get away from it. Imagine how hard it was to kick before, why let it get so hard again. You know how much harder it will be if you get sick. Much respect, I hope for the best. |
| _________________________________ [May 27,2009 1:21pm - reimroc ""] Yea need to stay away. |
| ______________________________________ [May 27,2009 1:24pm - SkinSandwich ""] Yeah, the dope sick sucks the cack. puking, shitting, cold, hot, aches, major pain, anxiety through the ceiling, all the worst shit. Hope you make it through the day! |
| ______________________________________ [May 27,2009 1:24pm - SkinSandwich ""] I just realized I said major pain [img] |
| _________________________________ [May 27,2009 1:27pm - reimroc ""] lol classic movie. |
| ______________________________ [May 27,2009 1:27pm - Yeti ""] I make a call, so far to fall Restless craving, inundating The summer snow, but it's not cold Once it's tested, thus infected I've lost myself again I've lost myself again it's a nightmare, but it's clear it will end, but then? The break of day, I rot away With every breath, I pray for death |
| ______________________________________ [May 27,2009 1:31pm - the_reverend ""] phil anselmo proves that there is no such thing as a functioning junky. |
| ______________________________________________ [May 27,2009 1:33pm - bradmann@bc library ""] congrats on getting signed [img] |
| _________________________________ [May 27,2009 1:34pm - RustyPS ""] *plays rimshot* |
| ______________________________________________ [May 27,2009 1:39pm - bradmann@bc library ""] http://instantrimshot.com/ |
| _____________________________________ [May 27,2009 1:42pm - Sacreligion ""] i thought that said "instant trim shot" and was expecting it to be waay hawter |
| ______________________________________________ [May 27,2009 1:43pm - bradmann@bc library ""] FUCKIN HOT [img] |
| ______________________________________ [May 27,2009 1:57pm - goatcatalyst ""] You can almost see a lil bush |
| _________________________________ [May 27,2009 1:59pm - RustyPS ""] Sacreligion said:i thought that said "instant trim shot" and was expecting it to be waay hawtersomeone should make that a real website...like every time you visit it, its just a different picture of a vag |
| _________________________________ [May 27,2009 2:01pm - moenli ""] i've seen what this shit can do to people first hand, stay away man...and good goddamned luck |
| _________________________________ [May 27,2009 2:02pm - reimroc ""] RustyPS said: Sacreligion said:i thought that said "instant trim shot" and was expecting it to be waay hawtersomeone should make that a real website...like every time you visit it, its just a different picture of a vag epic idea |
| _________________________________ [May 27,2009 2:02pm - reimroc ""] moenli said:i've seen what this shit can do to people first hand, stay away man...and good goddamned luck thank you sir. |
| _________________________________ [May 27,2009 3:34pm - reimroc ""] Well its almost clock out time from work. I made the day so far without skipping out to drive to fitchburg lol |
| ______________________________________ [May 27,2009 3:55pm - BlackoutRick ""] Yeti said:I make a call, so far to fall Restless craving, inundating The summer snow, but it's not cold Once it's tested, thus infected I've lost myself again I've lost myself again it's a nightmare, but it's clear it will end, but then? The break of day, I rot away With every breath, I pray for death White Slavery. |
| _________________________________ [May 27,2009 5:00pm - reimroc ""] ^ |
| _________________________________ [May 27,2009 5:05pm - brodown ""] RustyPS said: Sacreligion said:i thought that said "instant trim shot" and was expecting it to be waay hawtersomeone should make that a real website...like every time you visit it, its just a different picture of a vag Isn't that what RTTP is? |
| _________________________________ [May 27,2009 6:20pm - RustyPS ""] brodown said: RustyPS said: Sacreligion said:i thought that said "instant trim shot" and was expecting it to be waay hawtersomeone should make that a real website...like every time you visit it, its just a different picture of a vag Isn't that what RTTP is?touche good sir |
| ______________________________________ [May 28,2009 8:07am - SkinSandwich ""] Did ya make it through the rest of the day? |
| __________________________________ [May 28,2009 10:34am - reimroc ""] yea i made it. got your email too. |
| ____________________________________ [May 28,2009 10:46am - dreadkill ""] glad to hear you made it through the day. |
| _______________________________________ [May 28,2009 11:15am - SkinSandwich ""] reimroc said:yea i made it. got your email too. Cool mang... |
| ______________________________________ [May 28,2009 11:27am - ouchdrummer ""] reim, if you wanna talk sometime i'm in an outpatient program (not methadone) for similar issues and it works great. Call me, it could work for you too. |
| ______________________________________________ [May 28,2009 11:40am - AnotherMetalDrummer ""] Hey Reimroc, I am in the same situation as you. I attend 3-4 NA meetings a week and it really helps me out. I am in the same boat as you, I was heavilly addicted to heroin. Relapse is the worst but it happens man, no one is perfect. You just have to learn from it. Just remember, if you relapse, let it be that one time but if you continue to use its only going to get worse man! Dont let that shit grab you under again. If you ever think of using again, dont be afraid to call someone, talk to someone, post on rttp. Good luck brother, hit me up anytime if you need any words of encourgement |
| ______________________________________ [May 28,2009 11:48am - xanonymousx ""] reimroc said:Yea I could do that. I just hate this teeter-tottering feeling i have of "oh well i already relapsed so what will one more time hurt" and "man i don't need to be doing this shit" SUCKS don't do it again, someone in my family just died because of this. |
| _________________________________ [May 28,2009 3:30pm - brodown ""] Hey Garret, come on down to WUML and hang tonight if you're looking to keep yourself otherwise occupied... |
| _________________________________ [May 28,2009 3:36pm - reimroc ""] I'm going out to a meeting tonight. Maybe two. |
| _________________________________________ [May 28,2009 3:44pm - Das Schidt !!! ""] SHOOT YOURSELF IN THE HEAD YOU JUNKIE SCUMBAG!! HAHAHAHAHAHAAAA |
| ____________________________________ [May 28,2009 3:45pm - arilliusbm ""] clan meeting? |
| _________________________________ [May 28,2009 3:58pm - reimroc ""] arilliusbm said:clan meeting? HOT SHOWER! HOT SHOWER! |
| _________________________________________ [May 28,2009 4:06pm - ctb0rderpatrol ""] DRINK SOME GANSETTS AND FUCK SOME WHOOWAHHS, ITS OK TO BE HAAHD AS A BAHHNACLE |
| ________________________________________ [May 28,2009 6:28pm - My_Dying_Bride ""] SWITCH TO DUB-STEP NITROUS ORGIES OR YOU ARE A PUSSY. |
| ______________________________________ [May 29,2009 3:00pm - BlackoutRick ""] How bout some seriousness, assholes. |
| ______________________________________ [May 29,2009 3:15pm - SkinSandwich ""] Looks like he is doing well on the last report, cool bro! |
| _________________________________ [May 29,2009 6:04pm - reimroc ""] Yea I'm alive and well. Been keeping myself in check since I used. Of course I'm craving in my mind but I don't have any physical withdrawls or anything so its been fairly easy to keep myself away from doing it again. Lastly thanks for your support and kind words guys. |
| ______________________________________ [May 29,2009 6:38pm - goatcatalyst ""] Keep yo head up, nigga!!! |
| _________________________________ [May 29,2009 6:49pm - reimroc ""] goatcatalyst said:Keep yo head up, nigga!!! thanks playa playa |
| ______________________________________ [May 29,2009 7:09pm - goatcatalyst ""] Sho nuff [img] |
| ______________________________________ [May 29,2009 7:11pm - goatcatalyst ""] How's that for fail? |
| _________________________________ [May 29,2009 7:26pm - reimroc ""] rofl |
| ______________________________________ [May 29,2009 7:48pm - SkinSandwich ""] [img] |
| __________________________________ [May 29,2009 8:00pm - ddrummer ""] stay clean man, dont liet you life turn into a horrorfest like it was |
| ______________________________________ [May 31,2009 2:50pm - BlackoutRick ""] Life is worth living, man. Think positive. |
| _________________________________ [May 31,2009 4:03pm - reimroc ""] I have been thinking quite positive. I really don't want to go back to the way is was a couple years ago. |
| _____________________________________ [Jun 1,2009 11:25am - ouchdrummer ""] Again Reim, call me. If you aren't familiar with the suboxone program, you should be. Combined with meetings and counseling it's the best thing i ever did. |
| _________________________________ [Jun 1,2009 11:37am - reimroc ""] ouchdrummer said:Again Reim, call me. If you aren't familiar with the suboxone program, you should be. Combined with meetings and counseling it's the best thing i ever did. I am quite familiar with suboxone. My buddy used to be on that but is now on the methadone. |
| ____________________________________ [Jun 1,2009 4:31pm - ouchdrummer ""] y don't you get into the program? It works wonders. (when done correctly in correlation w/counseling.) |